Hello July 10th 2009. I just got home from the doctor. I had a chest x-ray yesterday and an appt. w/ my oncologist today. x-ray was normal, blood work is normal and my next appointment is in October. I'm hoping to be able to get a PET CT in October as well. Hopefully I won't have to fight the insurance company on that.

So, my oncologist is moving :( I'm quite sad. My first oncologist moved to North Carolina to be closer to family and this oncologist is moving to be close to family, but he also hates it here (who can blame him). So, he's going to be working in Phoenix, ARIZONA. I'm excited for him. He was talking to me today about how life is too short to be somewhere you don't like or do something you don't enjoy doing. It's so true. I need to get out of Knoxville. I don't enjoy my life here. I mean, I do love having my mom. But now that my dad is gone, the idea of trying to be in this area just seems pointless. I need to find out what i want to do career-wise and figure out where i want to move.

Lord, give me some direction. please open some doors for me. speak through someone to me!

Happy Birthday!

On this day, 59 years ago, Charles Gilbert Fields was born. Yes, my dad's middle name was GILBERT. Unfortunately, my dad is not celebrating his 59th birthday here with us. I miss my dad alot but know he is in heaven and having the time of his life. The transition since my dad passed away has been a rough one. He passed away on the 15th, his funeral was on the 17th, then we had Father's day, then most of his ashes were spread by his wife on July 2nd and today is his birthday! Blah.

On a different note, I did have a good 4th of July. That morning, I went to the gym and then got a drink from starbucks. I went to a cook-out w/ some friends for a couple hours, then back home to enjoy another coffee drink and chill w/ the family till our night time cook-out. After that I watched the family set off fireworks until i left to meet up w/ Jason. Our plans of going dancing were crushed by instead, we had a blast playing scrabble and eating cereal @ the cereal bar. YUM.

Friday night I went to the Smokies Baseball game and we WON. Following the game was a beautiful fireworks show. Alright. All the festivities have worn me out. Going to take a nap.

Thinking of you, dad!